Later, never Goodbye
Apr 22nd, 2013 by Autumn Sunshine
On Wednesday, April 17th, 2013, my much loved and beloved Cassie left this Earth. I was not ready for this. I will never be ready. I love her and cherished her with all my heart and soul. She was my baby girl kitty.
Cassie was 14, as near as we can tell. I adopted her from our local SPCA in 2001, at that time, I was told she was a year and a half old. I saw her and I knew she was the one, my heart told me. I later found out, she had been there for SIX months, six months in that cage. The second I held this precious bundle of fur in my arms I knew I’d fallen in love 🙂
Cassie is famous, here on my website, she was the proud writer of The Catalog, when a cat has to blog. Cassie was a star!
As I write this my thoughts are scattered. I am in such deep mourning that at times I feel helpless. My heart is broken …
In the end, I know that every last thing that could be done to “save” Cassie was done. She had kidney failure, she was being treated at the wonderful vet hospital with such loving people. I got a call the first day from our main vet, he told me she had a Grand Mal seizure, he explained, I cried. She battled on and she tried, but the next day she had another seizure which ended her life here on Earth.
How many times can one’s heart break? How many times can we deal with this loss? It hurts so bad. I have not cried this much since my Dad passed away almost 10 years ago.
I believe that Cassie is waiting for me, “on the other side”. She’s probably watching and wishing her Mommy would stop crying.
I will get her ashes this week, I need that.
As we traveled though life, Cassie became a part of me and I of her. We had such a very strong bond and a stronger love. I love you Cassie, my darling girl, see you on the other side.
A footnote to this story
I am now the “mom” of a single cat, Shadow a black girl kitty who was my daughter’s but is now in my care. She is grieving, I see it and we go on together. Shadow was adopted the same day as I adopted Cassie. Shadow was born as the SPCA on September 1, 2001. I will go on and maybe Shadow will have something to blog about someday, for now we are healing.