For Dad, with love
Dec 7th, 2012 by Autumn Sunshine
Today, December 7th is my Dad’s birthday …
Missing Dad Always
My Dad passed away on July 9, 2003, from a vicious cancer, Multiple Myeloma. Dad fought so hard and never stopping trying to “win the fight”. It was not something I ever thought could happen, my Dad was strong.
I was in denial for awhile, that happens. I “knew” that Dad would be fine and we would all live happily ever after. Hmmmm, well that didn’t happen. I woke up fast, and a time went on I had a feeling that the cancer would win. All I will say, is that anyone, no matter how old you are, when you lose a parent you feel like a child again. I did feel like a lost little girl. Dad could “fix” anything.
Today, I see my Mom and how she has carried along through life without Dad 🙁 sometimes I see the pain in her eyes when she talks about him. It’s fresh as it was the day he passed away. Love does survive death. Love is stronger than death.
I want to celebrate this day. It was the day my father was born! To me, that is what I hold on to. That is how I make it through this day. I remember the good things, not the bad.
Growing up my twin sister Gabby being first born, we were very close to our Dad, he made us who we are today. I thank him for that. We understand, thanks to him, that love is strong, that all people are equal, that we need to treat others how we want to be treated. We learned so very much.
Certain times are worse than others. The “lost little girl” feels the loss. I would give anything to have 5 more minutes with Dad. That’s not going to happen. He is in Heaven and he is free of pain.
It does make me feel what the song’s lyrics say …
One more dance … I love you Daddy!