For Dad, with love
Dec 7th, 2012 by Autumn Sunshine
Today, December 7th is my Dad’s birthday …
Missing Dad Always
My Dad passed away on July 9, 2003, from a vicious cancer, Multiple Myeloma. Dad fought so hard and never stopping trying to “win the fight”. It was not something I ever thought could happen, my Dad was strong.
I was in denial for awhile, that happens. I “knew” that Dad would be fine and we would all live happily ever after. Hmmmm, well that didn’t happen. I woke up fast, and a time went on I had a feeling that the cancer would win. All I will say, is that anyone, no matter how old you are, when you lose a parent you feel like a child again. I did feel like a lost little girl. Dad could “fix” anything.
Today, I see my Mom and how she has carried along through life without Dad 
sometimes I see the pain in her eyes when she talks about him. It’s fresh as it was the day he passed away. Love does survive death. Love is stronger than death.
Feelings
I want to celebrate this day. It was the day my father was born! To me, that is what I hold on to. That is how I make it through this day. I remember the good things, not the bad.
Growing up my twin sister Gabby being first born, we were very close to our Dad, he made us who we are today. I thank him for that. We understand, thanks to him, that love is strong, that all people are equal, that we need to treat others how we want to be treated. We learned so very much.
Certain times are worse than others. The “lost little girl” feels the loss. I would give anything to have 5 more minutes with Dad. That’s not going to happen. He is in Heaven and he is free of pain.
This Song
It does make me feel what the song’s lyrics say …
One more dance … I love you Daddy!
Awww, Autumn. I feel your sorrow. I know just what you mean too when you say we feel like a child again too when we loose our Dad…it was the same for me, then again when mom passed too. But we will see them again, and rest assure that your Dad is looking down from heaven with big smiles…he’s proud of you…I’m sure of it.! If bet because you and I are connected that our Dad’s meet in heaven too.
Your a strong and loving person, Autumn…Your Dad…both your parents did a wonderful job bringing you up…You have a heart of gold.
Happy Birthday to your Dad.
Love ya bunches, Autumn! ♥ xxx
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I knew you’d understand what I meant, it is just such a lost feeling, like being a child again to lose a parent. I know Dad is watching over me, he is no doubt thinking I’ve finally grown up
Seriously, I feel the same way about our Dad’s meeting in Heaven. Deb, you are just such a wonderful person and your heart is pure gold, and it’s a big and loving heart! You made my day happier with all you wonderful and fun comments 
lots of love ♥ hope your night is good and you have a great weekend. xx
Aw, you are so sweet to tell me all that, Autumn.
I will have a good weekend…hopefully get to paint. You have a great weekend too.
Love ya! ♥ xxx
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I hope you get to paint, too. You do that so well, your mega talent
love ya xox ♥
Muwah!
Night, night for now…after I see your other reply, that is.
xxx
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Night, and sweet dreams, sista
xx
HI Sam
thanks for stopping by!