Finding her own road …
Apr 1st, 2012 by Autumn Sunshine
My daughter is grown up now, graduated from college and working in her field of graphic design. I have let go some, she and her fiance have their own place but it’s near me. Now they are moving from our state to a state out west.
A Time for Letting Go
I’m a Mom who has trouble letting go. I can’t help it, it’s how I am. My daughter knows it, and I know in my heart she has to find her own road, I had written a blog about myself on that same subject. My Mom told me recently that she knows how I feel because she felt the same way when I left home !! It’s a “Mom thing” this holding on that we want to do.
My Inspiration
I started writing kids stories when she was a little girl of five and read them to her. She laughs now that her picture is gracing my stories! Yep, that is my little Alyssa at age 5, my inspiration for writing. I look at that picture of her and cannot believe the years have flown by.
I told her the other day that I wished we could go back to that time and have it again. 
Of course she said, NO!!! She didn’t want to go through all that school again.
I look at her now and think of my tiny little girl of five. She is still a tiny little girl, size 0, YES Zero; she is tiny and delicate and still looks so young. Oh my, I will be crying again if I stay on this track!
Time does fly
That’s how it goes, time flies and Mom’s cry … I know I’m not the only Mom that has felt this way, and I won’t be the last. So what I say to everyone with young kids, “Enjoy them” and don’t waste a minute, the time goes sooooo quickly!
My Princess at 5 Years
I blink my eyes and see my “little princess” learning to walk, to run, to roller blade, to ride her two wheeler bike. So many memories and it seems like only yesterday she was a baby girl who would not take naps Yes it goes fast … I say to myself everyday now, “Let go” just try and “let go”, I’m trying.
I figure I’ll just call her everyday and airplanes will get me across the country fast
All Grown Up
awww
i’m actually a size 1 – believe it or not i can’t fit into zeros.
Ahhhhh I am so proud of you, sweetie
You’ll always be my little princess 
Hey so Alyssa is now all grown up ..oh time sure does fly Autumn…just yesterday i was singing lullabies to Bonita and now she is 13 wonder where the middle years went and passed..how fast the kids grow and how mant times we( me and Sarbajeet- my hubby) talk how wonderful it would be to travel back and play with my baby when she was lil….
sigh….our little angels are flying and that image is so heart warming Autumn….to others she is a grown up a teenager but to me my daughter is just a lil kid…
i so get you…
Big hugs to Alyssa
Time really does fly, Soma. You know what I mean and how it feels, it just goes by so fast. I keep thinking how blessed we are to have our daughters
I used to think I just wish she’d take a little nap 
now I would love to go back to those times when she was so little 
I know you understand the feeling! love n hugs to you and Bonita !!
Oh, this is so lovely. I am sure, so sure I will feel the same when my beloved son is all grown. My gosh, I could feel this all the way. It really made me wistful, & made me want to value every today.
Great post.
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Thank you so much Noeleen
and thanks for stopping by. I just read your post on your blog, such good writing! Thanks again 
My boys are age 34 and 33. It was hard when they flew the coop, and now both live in different states, even from one another. I know how you must feel, Autumn.
Hugs, xx
It is so hard when they fly the coop, I bet it’s difficult with your sons being in different states. I am sad, but it will be OK. hugs xx
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